Mikey loves the pool

We went to Grandmas and Grandpas today and wanted to see if Mikey like the pool. As you can see from the pictures.. he wasnt sure at first but then he really liked it. Grandma and Mommy have found a fun swimming partner :-) I am sure if tomorrow is nice we will be swimming again!

Saturday Morning with Mommy

I had a day off with Mikey while daddy worked. We took a nice nap and then has some breakfast. Hes doing great! He was rolling around with his toys trying to get what he wanted not what Mommy thought he wanted lol. Now hes jumping in his exersaucer I swear hes about to jump out of that thing!

So cute when he babbles

BBQ Meeting with Aunt Lee and Mary

We had a wonderful day meeting Aunt Lee and Cousin Mary and seeing all our family. Mikey loved watching the kids splashing around in the pool. It turned out to be a great family reunion. I always wish we could get together more with the family but it's so hard these days. I am very glad we got to see everyone!

Grandpa's 90th Birthday Party

Today was a very busy day. Cheree' and Jenson got married this morning. What a beautiful wedding. Then we had to go to Dad's house for Grandpas Birthday party. It was great to see the family especially the ones we never get to see. Mikey was a little cranky because he woke up around strangers. As the night went on he came out of his shell and played on the floor. He had some lemon filling and some icing of the cake and loved it.

Valley Baby Jubilee 2010

Valley held a nice dinner at Seasons in Washington Township for all the IVF/IUI babies. It was great seeing so many miracles!! We had a nice time seeing the Doctors and Nurses who helped bring Mikey into our lives!

Emotional Outburst

A normal woman and man get married decide to have a baby and get pregnant. I on the other hand have 10 years of emotional craziness due to pills and hormones and tests. Finally after 10 long years tons of needles and over load of hormones just as I was ready to give up I finally got pregnant. Finally my long await pregnancy is here and I am ready to enjoy every moment of it. Just when it gets good and I start to feel my baby move hes here. 29 weeks with a very tiny baby. Its like a nightmare. I look back and think how did we get through that? A normal woman has a baby and takes them home with them. We had to leave Mikey in the hospital for 7 weeks.. 7 weeks of running back and forth from Wayne to Ridgewood twice a day to visit a child that didnt feel like ours because none of this felt real.

Finally we get our son home after all we've been through and we finally feel like a family and have such hopes and dreams for our future.

A normal parent enjoys every moment with their child watching him or her grow and explore new and exciting things that their child can do. Every child hits their milestones at their own pace but they get there within a certain period of time. Our child is 15 months old reaching milestones for a 6 month old. We pray our child can do the things a normal child does. We live our life scared and frightened about the future. We can never just play with our son. We have to do things in a certain way to help him get better.

I love my son with all my heart and I pray every day that continues to move forward and over comes this CP. I try to be so strong for him and for my husband but there is a lot of emotions inside of me that I am having trouble dealing with. No one knows what their furture holds anything can happen to anyone at any time.

I have to say that CP or no CP this child has brought us so much happiness. As you can see he smiles and laughs all the time. Hes one of the happiest kids I know. I try to focus on the happiness he brings and not the negatives that he might face but its hard. When I see kids around his age or even younger doing things hes not doing it breaks my heart. At BJS there was a 6 month old sitting in the cart by herself looking all around and my 15 month old has blankets stuffed around him to keep him sitting straight. So hard to deal with. Customers at work ask all the time oh I bet hes walking all over the place. What do I say? Im not good at lying and the whole hes a preemie thing is kinda getting old.

I had to write this to get some stuff off my chest because when I write I cry and let my emotions out. Other wise I keep them in and try and stuff them down. I dont want anyone with kids to feel they have to hide their children from me. I had someone appologize to me for telling me their 12 month old was walking. Knowing what I know about CP and other disabilities I am very grateful to see other babies reaching their milestones and I would rather be told these things then sit here thinking Oh is there something wrong because they arent doing what they should do.

Please dont feel weird around us we are a normal family dealing with lots of emotions and a diagnosis that is so scary to us. We have our good days and bad and I blog when things need to be let out. As I have said before we have now 4 great therpists working with Mikey and as bad as things sound hes doing wonderfully. The last few days hes babbling more then ever before and today we learned that after the babble should come words. :-)

I know it's one day at a time and today was a tough one for me emotionally. Tomorrow should be better! I dont even know if my blog made sense but I had to get things out. I wouldnt change any of this for the world. God brought this child to us to love and share our lives with and we will do any thing we have to do to get him the help he needs. He already has tons of love and support and a whole cheering section for him :-) How could you not love that smile :)

Mikey likes egg yolks...

Grandma and I recently realized we are depriving this poor kid from food. Imagine that! He should be eating so much more adult foods but we are so afraid of him choking we've been holding back. Today Grandma and Grandpa gave Mikey an egg yolk and he loved it! So now this will become a bigger part of his diet. Next onto the meats.. real meats not the yucky jar stuff!

Lazy Sunday Morning..

I know it seems like Mikey watches a lot of Kial-lan and he does but I make him do things therpay wise when he watches her. I make him sit or watch from his walker or belly. He loves her so much he whines until he gets him way. There are mommys ways where I let him whine and force him to play with things and there are Daddys ways where he gives in at the first whimper lol. I cant believe he loves this show this much. If you say the word Kia-lan he gets all excited or cries because he wants to see her! I tell you its an obsession!!

Life has its bumps in the road...

As most of you already know what a miracle Mikey is. From conception to birth this child has been a gift from God. When Mikey was born he had a PVL brain bleed. This was something that the doctors watched closely and told us all the time we dont know what damage this might have caused. They basically told us that we would find out was he got older.

Michael will be 15 months old tomorrow.. adjusted 12. He should be doing the things a 12 month old baby would be doing but hes not. We recently found out that he has signs and symptoms of Cerebral Palsy. This is a very scary diagnoses. We have been trying to deal with this emotionally for a few weeks now. We dont know what his future holds but for today he brings joy and happiness into everyone lives that he touches. Hes an amazing kid.

I truly believe God only gives you what you can handle and I feel that God knows we have big enough hearts to care for this special little boy. Michael had many people who love and care for him. He has 3 amazing therpists who work with him 4 days a week and another one starting next week. We are so grateful for these woman. Not only do they do a great job with him but you can tell they care about Mikey and his future. They teach us how to handle him and what we can do to help him have the best quality of life he can possibly have.

All we ask is to keep him and us in your prayers. For him to thrive and be strong enough to get through whatever God brings his way and for us the strength to care for him and give him all the care he needs. Also to bare with us .. we are going to have ups and downs. We just pray to get by one day at a time!! Thanks :-)

Mikey walking to Kia-lan

Michael was in his walking watching Kia-lan on the computer. He kept moving forward and Grandma had to keep moving him back! Hes to funny :-)

Trip to BJ's

Was pretty fun for Mikey. He liked the cart. Mommys nuts so she was running up and down the aisle turning Mikey around like a ride. We had a good time.. until the end when he ended up like this....

MIkeys love Kia-lan

To my surprise another Tooth I see..

Ive been in the injured sick catagory for a few days now. Daddy was making sure I didnt get Mikey sick so I wasnt allowed near him. So far it seemed to work because everyone else is just fine! Today when I finally got to hold my son I see another tooth has come out! He now had 2 full on the top and one more starting to break and 3 full on the bottom with another one starting to break!! My babys gonna have a full mouth of teeth soon. Of course now he needs to learn not to bite. He tried to bite my arm earlier. I didnt think my son would be bratty lol.

So now we have to make sure he knows not to bite his friends.. or his family either!!

Mothers Day at Moms

We spent some time with my mom and dad today. We had chinese food and a nice visit. Here are some pictures from today. It was a wonderful Mothers Day weekend with my boys and family!!

Mothers Day at Nanas House

Today we had a nice day at Nanas house with Pop pop, Uncle Brian and Great Grandma and Great Grandpa. Mikey was sitting on his own for a while. Hes getting better and better with this! He was introduced to bubbles and he seemed to like them. He also had some whipped cream yummy!! And he was showing off his rolling over just a little :-)

Rolling Rolling Rolling...

We are so proud of Mikey hes been showing off and rolling over both ways! He was so out of control I had to put him on the floor because I was afraid he was going to roll right off the bed!

Also today he had a great session with Michele. He also was picking up the gerber melts and putting them in his mouth. I had to watch carefully since he was trying to put more then one in at a time!

These are such great achievements :-) hes a very determined little man!!

Michael Rolls over both ways :-)

Michael has been having trouble rolling but this weekend he was rolling a lot from his belly to his back! Tonight sitting home with Mommy he started rolling from his back to belly! You go little man we love you so much!!

Mikeys Dr Appointment

Today was our 6 month visit with Dr. Woo shes his neurologist.  She has the same opinions as the other doctors but feels the same way.  I waited to tell her of his diagnoses to see what she had to say.  We have to go back in September to see her again. 

This is all so new and hard to deal with.  Some days are easier then others.  One thing everyone seems to agree with is how Mikeys going to walk and should only have minor issues.  As always its one day at a time.  Look at this face :-)  this child is a blessing and is very determined!! 

Eggs Not so good

Mikey had some real eggs today.  He didnt like them so much.  I didnt get a picture because he kept gagging and I was afraid he was going to choke.  We will try this again soon.  He did have some bananas today but most of that was mushed in his hands but he did like the little bit he ate!

Mikeys first carnival

We went to Hillsdale to the carnival.  Mikey wasnt impressed.  It was a hot day to.  But we got to see some old friends and had a nice time!