First Circus for Mikey

The above photo tells all! He did really enjoy the circus!



The juggling was his favorite!!

So emotional lately...

I can hardly answer the question are you ok? Without crying lately. Am I ok? I dont know.. I guess Im ok. Im trying to be strong for my son and my family. I dont want to be the one crying all the time. I dont want people to feel sorry for me. Believe me my son is the happiest kid around and even with all our struggles he turns my tears into smiles but I still cry. It seems lately that every little stressful thing pushes me over the edge! If my coffee is made wrong I will burst out crying.. is it over the coffee? No its the one thing that pushes me over my limit. I was even wondering what a nervous break down felt like. I was really wondering if Im headed there or this is normal for a mother with a child who has special needs?

I think I need a day or so of just crying then the tears will dry for a while I can move on with life until I need another day to cry it out. Do I need therapy? maybe? who knows ... sometimes I dont even know exactly why Im crying I just know its hard not to cry.

How can I cry when I have this... http://youtu.be/C62sQzjaBv4

Mikey is making so much progress lately. I am so proud of him yet still so scared of his future. One day at a time!!! I just wish I believed that!

The Childrens Therapy Center

The Childrens Therapy Center is such a wonderful place. We went to a gala for the school and it was so hard not to cry. When I say cry its not tears of pain it was tears of joy and emotions. Seeing how much these teachers and the CTC staff loves these kids was very emotional for me.

The day we went to look at this place I would have left Mikey there. Thats how comfortable and caring these wonderful people are.

Mikes class made some projects to auction off and here is what we won..



It was a wonderful night for an even more wonderful cause. I love that place and I pray Mikey can stay there when he turns 3. Im sure other places are good to but this place is like home!