I can hardly answer the question are you ok? Without crying lately. Am I ok? I dont know.. I guess Im ok. Im trying to be strong for my son and my family. I dont want to be the one crying all the time. I dont want people to feel sorry for me. Believe me my son is the happiest kid around and even with all our struggles he turns my tears into smiles but I still cry. It seems lately that every little stressful thing pushes me over the edge! If my coffee is made wrong I will burst out crying.. is it over the coffee? No its the one thing that pushes me over my limit. I was even wondering what a nervous break down felt like. I was really wondering if Im headed there or this is normal for a mother with a child who has special needs?
I think I need a day or so of just crying then the tears will dry for a while I can move on with life until I need another day to cry it out. Do I need therapy? maybe? who knows ... sometimes I dont even know exactly why Im crying I just know its hard not to cry.
How can I cry when I have this... http://youtu.be/C62sQzjaBv4
Mikey is making so much progress lately. I am so proud of him yet still so scared of his future. One day at a time!!! I just wish I believed that!
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